The Waking
Theodore Roethke

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.
I learn by going where I have to go.

We think by feeling. What is there to know?
I hear my being dance from ear to ear.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Of those so close beside me, which are you?
God bless the Ground! I shall walk softly there,
And learn by going where I have to go.

Light takes the Tree; but who can tell us how?
The lowly worm climbs up a winding stair;
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Great Nature has another thing to do
To you and me; so take the lovely air,
And, lovely, learn by going where to go.

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.
What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go.

or the Merriweather Post Pavilion-crash week

Post college plans are still vague as of yet. Like some people I talked to since this is such a hot topic these days, my plan is to work for a while so I can save money for graduate studies tuition. I can do that, hell yeah! I'm a moron but I really want that kind of life. (Scholarly lyf)

And one more thing people are up to these days: fishing for boyfriends, when not simply pining for one. I belong to the latter group haha. (First group, the women in action, are slutting it out I tell u joke haha) I'm old enough you know, now is the time! This sounds stupid but gah I'm jsut brimming with affection with no vessel to pour it into. Oh hormones, how you make me suffer so, hormones.

Vessel :P



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Is it possible that I myself can't decide what's good for myself or what I want? I'd dulled those instincts, seems that way.

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Listening to nothing but that lovely dreamy album can drive you crazy. And crazy in love with this band:


I love you band. I jsut love. Even if MPP makes my heart ache with too much love I love you

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I had my own agenda for volunteering to upload the audio lectures in our Econ 31 group: flash disk spying! Not that the best professor ever would mind, he must've anticipated this. I'm stealing the philosophy lecture files (Kierkagaard! Aquinas! Those old fools!) but knowing him, he'd be even pleased to know a student of his is interested in philosophy, I mean once I'd told him I thiefed his files. Jackpot talaga!

TO be frank, I didn't expect the files to be this large! This is like a gig huge all in all.

My table tennis professor let us choose our practice partners for this part of the course, and I replaced my old partner since we never really got it on. She taps the table with the paddle, on the spot where I ideally should've let the ball land whenever I make a mistake, and it just gets on my nerves. It's just so good that I arrived earlier than she had, though I was very close to being marked absent again due to 5 minutes lateness, so I had a ready excuse why I had a new partner.

I never liked sir's assistant teacher in class, but then again, I'm not the type to like a whole lot of people. It's mostly because of the attendance thing, and also she can't play table tennis. I should speak about her more nicely but openly declaring annoyance is something new to me. The professor let us out early, which was out of the ordinary. In the locker room I bumped into H., my PI classmate. I never realized she was 28 until she told she was 28. I kinda like H. 

It's probably because of being sleep deprived that I just had coffee for lunch. Lunch was eye-opening, like any real human interaction is. My communication skills are picking up too

Then Ec 31 went way over my head, like the things Yla and her friends talk about. I have a feisty Marxist classmate here, his comments are whacked, they are unsettling, but I guess that is supposed to be good? Sir made a joke about the college being a case of binabato ang hinog na bunga... I didn't like the jest (ang yabang eh haha) but there must be some truth to it I just can't perceive.

Then Ec 141. Our scores for the first exam were announced. K. The new lessons are easier to absorb.

PI was cancelled.

Took the jeep, slept through the ride, then the mrt, then the jeep again and then I was home.

Not bad for a day I soldiered on with just 2 hours of sleep. I learned and I'm trying to live by the saying that everyday must be lived deliberately. .. Tough transition!